Raped

My viriginty is gone,the virginty i saved for someone i truly loved and will stay with forever is gone,it was wasted on a older guy,he pushed me down, tore my clothes,and penetrated me,i kicked and screamed but he didnt care,i kicked him and ran away,i feel so used and dirty,im crying as i type,at least he didnt climax or i would be impregnated with his child,making my life horrible,i hope it dosent happen to you,-a very sad japanese girl